#29

saying farewell to one of dearest friends today and wow, does that stir

some feelings up. i know she's only moving to another country,and that it

is not the final farewell and that she plans to come back, but it's bringing up

all sorts of interesting emotions.

i know change is inevitable and my how i love to tell my students to embrace

this concept. watch the changes without any clinging to what was or what could

be. during meditation we may watch the breath or "feel" our bodies, noticing

emotions and thoughts that arise. over time we begin to see that nothing

ever lasts for that long. that nothing ever stays the same. even when we feel

anxious or angry and it seems like a very solid state that we are in. when we

just sit and watch what is happening, like an observer watching a film for example,

we see that anger is not even just one thing. that the feeling we thought we were

experiencing are just a series of many different emotions, thoughts and feelings.

so i have been sitting and watching my feelings triggered by this farewell and it has been

great fodder for contemplation. this week i have learnt that i still cling. i have learnt

how much i value authentic people. and i have come to understand that distance is all

in my head.