#3

feeling kinda low and blue today as i think of my friend who is facing the end

of his time here with us and realising how hard it is i find it to talk about death 

and how the people around me also find it just as hard.

we speak around the matter so often. i thought i had come further along with my 

feelings about death, but it still seems a very difficult thing to process.

i still cling to the hope of a miracle happening for my friend - am i pollyanna or 

am i optimistic???

and even though my friend is still here with us, i feel the sadness of his passing 

already and it's crushing.